I heard an old Jewish saying once that went something like "I woke up this morning, everything else is gravy". I love that saying. Some people that I've told it to think it's dire, or lowest common denominator. I think it's a way of saying, "Thank you God for this day. I won't waste it, I'll work hard, I'll get better at one thing today." I think everyone would feel better about their place in life if they thought like that.

I'm just sayin'.

peace

cd

Pins and Needles

Waiting for the rest of your career to happen when you know where you want it to go takes forever!

Lemons

Life threw us some lemons this week, and this will be the last time I speak of them. I guess the main reason I was heartbroken is the loss of potential. Somehow in the last 15 years I have become an optimist again. I know why that's changed, but I'm keeping that to myself. My life is already more rich than I could ever imagine, and an addition to our family would have been accompanied by overwhelming love. Somehow in the last three days that additional love has still found it's way into our family, and for that I am forever grateful.

Life threw us lemons this week, and we made some awesome libations with it!

peace

cd

It's not our time, this time

We had a setback last night. #3 wasn't meant to be. Rather than being heartbroken about it, we are taking it in stride, hugging our kids more, hugging each other more, and thanking God that we already have an incredible family.

peace

cd

41

It's my birthday tomorrow, and all I can think of is 1987. Is there something in our biology that makes us look backwards instead of forwards as we grow older? My life is fulfilled with the most wonderful family possible, a great career, and my relatively good health. That being said, all I can think of is my senior year in high school. What fun that was!

Rather than being full of sentimental BS about my life, I'll wax poetic about something else. Why can't Tim Gunn be my friend? He seems like such a nice man. Lorelei's friend Crescent had the funniest dream about him. She dreamt that they would grow old together and he would hold her hand and it would be resplendent. Funny stuff.

Life's too short to think about deep stuff. Live in the moment, enjoy what you have, and when you have the opportunity, drive with your windows rolled down while listening to outlaw country music.

Happy Birthday Me!

peace

ce

A new year

I used to not look forward to New Years, and all of the resolutions, planning, and excitement it brought. I thought my future was cloudy at best, without a lot of hope for an easier and more rewarding life. This notion started to change 15 years ago in Minneapolis. I remember telling myself in an alcohol induced reflection moment that the past was the past and I will only live in the future. Several days later I would meet the love of my life and would never look back again.

The uncertainty of things outside my relationship with Lorelei still existed, and slowly as our family grew and my career took off these uncertainties have dropped by to where I am today. I look forward to each and every day, week, month, and year. These new days bring new opportunities for love and growth.

Friday, January 1st, will bring with it a new list of resolutions:

1. Lose my remaining 30 pounds and get back to a healthy weight.
2. Find new employment that challenges me in a positive way.
3. Take our family on a vacation that is well deserved.
4. Take life on head first and use every presented opportunity to it's fullest.
5. Play with my kids more.

2009 had challenges that we overcame, but in 2010 we make our luck, and we kick ass!

peace
cd

Middle MicroManager

I have become what I despise, a middle manager. But it's worse! A micro middle manager. I have been managing the design and installation of our company's new website. I know next to nothing about web design or coding, but I have time and project management skills so it was assigned to me. I have been told to micromanage, in not so many words, the person doing the web site coding. Put a picture there, take a picture out here, change those words to red, leave these ones alone, etc.... It's maddening. You hired talented experts to do this job, let them do it.

merry christmas

cd